My sister called this morning: "Is everything OK?" she asked, concern evident in her voice.
"Uhhhh, yeah. Why?"
"You missed a day! On your blog!"
"Oh, yeah. I did that on purpose."
"On purpose? WHY? What happened?"
"Oh, nothing. Except it was a miserable day work-wise, and I'd put in umpteen hours, and it was 11:30 when I finished and...I just couldn't face another 'I'm posting about why I can't post' post. So I just decided not to do it."
"But...But...You gave up anniversary sex to blog! Why quit now?"
She's right. (Not that I gave up anniversary sex, of course. But I did postpone it. Which is almost as sacrificial. Yes, Mom--and Deb--I know that's too much information.) It was a stupid reason not to post. But then again, what's the point in doing this if I open up my browser and stare resentfully at the blank "Create Post" page in Blogger? I still have plenty to say...just not last night.
And so I'm out of this, the first non-November NaBloPoMo challenge. I won't be doing next month, either, because we're going away with a group from our temple the first weekend of April (or at least Em, N and I are...Baroy has to stay behind) to 'family camp' where we won't have...gulp...internet access. (I KNOW! What is WRONG with these people? Making sure we properly observe Shabbat and EVERYthing. Sheesh.) But I'm toying with the idea of trying again in May. And it's not like I don't EVER post when I'm not NaBlowing. I just post a little less drivel is all.
So, in case you were wondering...I'm fine. Everyone's fine. I just got TIRED.
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Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Sunday, March 23, 2008
We Really Can't Go Home Again
On the way to dinner last night, we passed the street where Baroy and I (and our friends M and G and another guy who we try not to think about) all lived together. Baroy and Guy We Try Not To Think About lived there for about six years, G had moved in a year or two after, and M moved in about eight months before I did. I was there a year and a half when the stress of having Guy We Try Not To Think About around all the time--plus G's hour-long commute and my and Baroy's impending marriage--caused us to decide to go the more conventional route and go out and get our 'own' places.
I could write long books about those 18 months. I've started to, several times. They were, in many ways, the true Best Time of My Life. We often talk about the 'what ifs' of having continued to live together (the four of us, only) and having been a less-conventional family; Em, in particular, likes to wonder what it would have been like to have so many much-loved people living in her house with her.
So it was a little bit upsetting, when I impulsively swerved across traffic to turn down that old street, to find that the house we lived in is gone. Like, completely. Like, it and the house next to ours--both duplexes--had been torn down, and in their place was the shell of a new 'luxury' apartment building that, from the drawings out front, is going to wind up looking more Vegas casino than most Vegas casinos.
The feeling was similar to that of seeing the photos my mom occasionally sends of the complete destruction of the house I lived in from ages 13 to 18--and which I visited or stayed in throughout the years thereafter. Except, in that case, I knew when my mom and stepdad sold the house, and I knew what was happening to all the other nice, modest houses on that block as they sold. So when the wrecking balls moved in, and when the nice modest house turned into a cement monstrosity, it wasn't much of a surprise.
But this house...I can't remember the last time I drove past it, but it's been years. At least three or four years, since my friend Tamar--the last person I still knew in that neighborhood, moved away in 2005. But probably more than that, because I don't actually recall visiting it when I visited her. All I know is that the last time I'd seen it, it was intact, and it has remained untouched in my memory all that time, and all the times we've sat with M and G and reminisced. So to see it gone...hurt, frankly. Hurt a lot. Because now I can't show it to the kids one day, like I'd always assumed we'd do. But also because now when I think about it, it's going to truly only be a memory, and not a reality...not sitting there, ready, waiting, holding on to my past for me.
I could write long books about those 18 months. I've started to, several times. They were, in many ways, the true Best Time of My Life. We often talk about the 'what ifs' of having continued to live together (the four of us, only) and having been a less-conventional family; Em, in particular, likes to wonder what it would have been like to have so many much-loved people living in her house with her.
So it was a little bit upsetting, when I impulsively swerved across traffic to turn down that old street, to find that the house we lived in is gone. Like, completely. Like, it and the house next to ours--both duplexes--had been torn down, and in their place was the shell of a new 'luxury' apartment building that, from the drawings out front, is going to wind up looking more Vegas casino than most Vegas casinos.
The feeling was similar to that of seeing the photos my mom occasionally sends of the complete destruction of the house I lived in from ages 13 to 18--and which I visited or stayed in throughout the years thereafter. Except, in that case, I knew when my mom and stepdad sold the house, and I knew what was happening to all the other nice, modest houses on that block as they sold. So when the wrecking balls moved in, and when the nice modest house turned into a cement monstrosity, it wasn't much of a surprise.
But this house...I can't remember the last time I drove past it, but it's been years. At least three or four years, since my friend Tamar--the last person I still knew in that neighborhood, moved away in 2005. But probably more than that, because I don't actually recall visiting it when I visited her. All I know is that the last time I'd seen it, it was intact, and it has remained untouched in my memory all that time, and all the times we've sat with M and G and reminisced. So to see it gone...hurt, frankly. Hurt a lot. Because now I can't show it to the kids one day, like I'd always assumed we'd do. But also because now when I think about it, it's going to truly only be a memory, and not a reality...not sitting there, ready, waiting, holding on to my past for me.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Go Away and Leave Us Alone
Note to self: Don't ever again promise to write a post a day during your anniversary month, lest you find yourself
And now I am done with you all for tonight. My husband is downstairs on the couch, waiting for me to come watch The Ten Commandments with him. (Garlic and Moses. We are bringing sexy *back*!)
Oh, and in case you were wondering...Of course I'm leaving my bra on the coffee table for Em to find tomorrow. How could I possibly pass up such a golden opportunity to mess with a 10-year-old's mind?
- dropping the kids off with the lovely friends who offered to keep them overnight
- going out to dinner and stuffing yourself full of as much smelly and delicious garlic as you could possible even consider ingesting (including a very dirty and very scrumptious garlic martini)
- driving home to your empty home, laughing and holding hands
- running to the computer so you can get a post in before midnight.
And now I am done with you all for tonight. My husband is downstairs on the couch, waiting for me to come watch The Ten Commandments with him. (Garlic and Moses. We are bringing sexy *back*!)
Oh, and in case you were wondering...Of course I'm leaving my bra on the coffee table for Em to find tomorrow. How could I possibly pass up such a golden opportunity to mess with a 10-year-old's mind?
Friday, March 21, 2008
16-Year-Old Bubbles
I just poured the very last of a jar of bubble bath into the tub for N. You know how sometimes you hold an ordinary object in your hand, and suddenly it ceases to be an object, but it becomes an entire experience? That's what happened to this plastic jar as I reached over to drop it into the garbage pail. It stopped being a container, and became instead my friend Joyce and myself, giggling together as we shopped for lotions and potions at The Body Shop in the then-still-relatively-new Herald Center, a "vertical mall" built right across 34th Street from Macy's. I loved Joyce; she was fun and silly and she always made me laugh. And she was one of the few people in the world who simply refused to buy my "I'm not a girly-girl; I don't *do* cosmetics" schtick and instead dragged me from store to store spending money on frilly and fluffy things as if we had nothing else to do with it. (Which, mostly, we didn't. We were single and in our 20s, and aside from buying subway tokens and beer at Cedar Terrace on Friday nights, had very little in the way of financial obligations.)
I could still hear her laughter in my head as I started doing the math: I moved from New York to Los Angeles in 1993. Joyce, if I'm not mistaken, stopped working for ABigScienceMagazine well before that.
Those bubbles, in other words, have probably recently celebrated their Sweet 16.
Lesson of the day: I really need to take more bubble baths.
I could still hear her laughter in my head as I started doing the math: I moved from New York to Los Angeles in 1993. Joyce, if I'm not mistaken, stopped working for ABigScienceMagazine well before that.
Those bubbles, in other words, have probably recently celebrated their Sweet 16.
Lesson of the day: I really need to take more bubble baths.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Poor Brown
Homework with N has been horrible lately. I'm short-tempered, he's in over his head and fidgety and unhappy. Yesterday was really bad. I was already feeling touchy, after his teacher had pulled me aside in the playground to tell me about some more problems he's having academically, and also to bemoan the fact that this same kid--the one who kicked butt as Star of the Week--is now the Pledge Leader, and is doing the measly little THREE LINES ("Put your right hand over your heart. Ready, begin. You may be seated.") with his hands over his eyes and his head pulled into his shirt collar and in a voice that is basically inaudible. "He's practically in tears by the end of it each day," she said, shaking her head. "I just don't understand."
To which I wanted to scream: I KNOW. THIS IS WHAT I'VE BEEN TRYING TO SAY FOR SEVEN YEARS NOW. There is no consistency; no using yesterday's gains to inform tomorrow's expectations. My child is like human quicksand, and every time I move, I get sucked deeper into the not-understanding.
But that's not my point. My point is, homework has been bad. And yesterday's was especially so. He was so not-there, and I was so on edge, that at one point I grabbed his arm...hard...with an intent to get his attention, and without an intent to be gentle with him. "N!" I snapped, loudly, getting right into his face. "You need to listen to me right now, or you're going to lose TV!" At he looked at me and grinned smugly, insultingly. I saw red and sent him to his room until I could calm down enough to finish working with him.
Today was less bad. Not good, but less bad. Still, by the end, he was twirling around a crayon and writing on the table inadvertently and simply not paying attention to the VERY LAST PROBLEM we had to get through. I could feel my composure slipping, and so--trying to pretened I'd something from the day before--I took my anger out on the crayon he was playing with, snapping it in half and throwing it into the garbage. I wasn't yelling, I didn't even raise my voice. I thought I'd done pretty well...until I looked at my son, who literally and immediately collapsed onto the couch in tears.
"That was my favorite brown!" he wailed.
"I'm sorry, but you were using it as a toy during homework, and I needed you to focus on what you were doing," I said.
"BUT YOU BROKE BROWN!" And thus ensued ten straight minutes of true, honest-to-goodness sobs, while I held him and rocked him and told him that I was sorry, that I didn't know the crayon was so special to him.
Finally, when he'd quieted down a bit, I said, "Are we OK now?"
"I don't know," he said, his head still in his hands. "I'm still so sad for brown."
Ten minutes later, after we'd finished the last homework problem, he came into the family room to find me. In his cupped hands were the two pieces of brown crayon.
"We're better now," he said. "I don't mind so much that brown is in two pieces."
I thought, for a microsecond, of being the model of consistency that every parenting book tells me I need to be, and insisting that he put the pieces back in the garbage: After all, that was the punishment I'd meted out, and I should stick to it. But I couldn't do that to his hopeful, newly happy face. I couldn't do that to a kid who could grin while his mom is yelling in his face one day, but who collapses in grief over a broken crayon. I couldn't be that mean.
Quicksand, I say. That child is pure quicksand. And he's totally sucked me in.
To which I wanted to scream: I KNOW. THIS IS WHAT I'VE BEEN TRYING TO SAY FOR SEVEN YEARS NOW. There is no consistency; no using yesterday's gains to inform tomorrow's expectations. My child is like human quicksand, and every time I move, I get sucked deeper into the not-understanding.
But that's not my point. My point is, homework has been bad. And yesterday's was especially so. He was so not-there, and I was so on edge, that at one point I grabbed his arm...hard...with an intent to get his attention, and without an intent to be gentle with him. "N!" I snapped, loudly, getting right into his face. "You need to listen to me right now, or you're going to lose TV!" At he looked at me and grinned smugly, insultingly. I saw red and sent him to his room until I could calm down enough to finish working with him.
Today was less bad. Not good, but less bad. Still, by the end, he was twirling around a crayon and writing on the table inadvertently and simply not paying attention to the VERY LAST PROBLEM we had to get through. I could feel my composure slipping, and so--trying to pretened I'd something from the day before--I took my anger out on the crayon he was playing with, snapping it in half and throwing it into the garbage. I wasn't yelling, I didn't even raise my voice. I thought I'd done pretty well...until I looked at my son, who literally and immediately collapsed onto the couch in tears.
"That was my favorite brown!" he wailed.
"I'm sorry, but you were using it as a toy during homework, and I needed you to focus on what you were doing," I said.
"BUT YOU BROKE BROWN!" And thus ensued ten straight minutes of true, honest-to-goodness sobs, while I held him and rocked him and told him that I was sorry, that I didn't know the crayon was so special to him.
Finally, when he'd quieted down a bit, I said, "Are we OK now?"
"I don't know," he said, his head still in his hands. "I'm still so sad for brown."
Ten minutes later, after we'd finished the last homework problem, he came into the family room to find me. In his cupped hands were the two pieces of brown crayon.
"We're better now," he said. "I don't mind so much that brown is in two pieces."
I thought, for a microsecond, of being the model of consistency that every parenting book tells me I need to be, and insisting that he put the pieces back in the garbage: After all, that was the punishment I'd meted out, and I should stick to it. But I couldn't do that to his hopeful, newly happy face. I couldn't do that to a kid who could grin while his mom is yelling in his face one day, but who collapses in grief over a broken crayon. I couldn't be that mean.
Quicksand, I say. That child is pure quicksand. And he's totally sucked me in.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
A Death in the Cyberfamily
I joined my August '97 birthmonth list in January of 1997, less than two months after I got my positive pregnancy test. To say that it changed my life would be an understatement, considering that my bestest girlfriends--and more than half the people who comment here on any regular basis--come from that very same list. Our babies--or, as we call them, our Auggies--have been cybercousins since the days they were born, many of them to mothers who sent out emails to the list from labor and delivery (or from a birth center, or from their bedroom...). Em has met a number of the Auggies, and knows about many others from stories I tell her as events in their lives unfold.
We've been together for 11 years now, and there are still 60-some of us subscribed, I think. Or something like that.
Early today, one of our number was driving a car on a slick road in Texas when she lost control of her car, crossed a grassy median into oncoming traffic, and was hit by an oncoming passenger truck. Her daughter--her Auggie--was killed instantly. (She and her younger child were injured but seem not to be in serious danger, thank goodness.)
I can't untangle the tears for the little girl, who I've known since she was born, and the tears for her mom, and the tears for 'it could have been me, it could have been Em, I can't imagine the pain, I don't want to imagine the pain, I can't stop imagining the pain'. And really, it doesn't matter. This is an event worthy of tears, wherever they come from.
There's been a refrain in the shocked and horrified emails on our list since the news made its way to us, and it brings a fresh batch of sobbing each time I read it:
Rest in peace, Maeve.
We've been together for 11 years now, and there are still 60-some of us subscribed, I think. Or something like that.
Early today, one of our number was driving a car on a slick road in Texas when she lost control of her car, crossed a grassy median into oncoming traffic, and was hit by an oncoming passenger truck. Her daughter--her Auggie--was killed instantly. (She and her younger child were injured but seem not to be in serious danger, thank goodness.)
I can't untangle the tears for the little girl, who I've known since she was born, and the tears for her mom, and the tears for 'it could have been me, it could have been Em, I can't imagine the pain, I don't want to imagine the pain, I can't stop imagining the pain'. And really, it doesn't matter. This is an event worthy of tears, wherever they come from.
There's been a refrain in the shocked and horrified emails on our list since the news made its way to us, and it brings a fresh batch of sobbing each time I read it:
Rest in peace, Maeve.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Starring As...Myself
Tomorrow night Purim begins; Em is 'acting' the part of Queen Esther during the Megillah reading at our synagogue, and has been planning out her costume incessantly. N made himself about a dozen different masks at the Purim Carnival on Sunday, so he's covered, too.
"And what are *you* coming as?" my friend F asked me.
"An overworked, overcommitted, totally frazzled mother of two," I replied without hesitation. "And you?"
And with that, I hope you'll understand when I say that I have no time to write anything more tonight. I'm much too busy getting into costume.
"And what are *you* coming as?" my friend F asked me.
"An overworked, overcommitted, totally frazzled mother of two," I replied without hesitation. "And you?"
And with that, I hope you'll understand when I say that I have no time to write anything more tonight. I'm much too busy getting into costume.
Monday, March 17, 2008
You Don't Want to Know
Because Jane makes me feel bad about wearing comfy but crappy bras, I keep buying new ones recommended to me by lingerie salesladies. They always fit in the store, but after a washing or two, they twist and distort and they HURT. So, more often than not, I end up giving up halfway through the evening and taking my bra off wherever I am.
That is the prologue to the conversation I am about to relate, between myself and Em on our way home from school today. (Keep in mind that both of us laughed and giggled throughout this entire exchange; otherwise, I'd have to write, "she giggled," and "I laughed" after every identifier, and it would get dull.)
Em: Hey, Mom, I found your bra on the coffee table this morning.
Me: Yeah, I know.
Em: Yeah, I was thinkin', 'ooooh, what were YOU doing last night?'
Me: Uh, Em? Lemme give you some advice before you go any further. Don't ask questions you don't want to know the answers to. You're 10 years old. I'm betting you would be more embarrassed if I gave you the answer you're looking for than I could ever be.
Em: Yeah, but I was thinking, its was almost your anniversary, you guys were watching a movie, the lights were low, there was romantic music...
Me: Em! Let me say this again. You DON'T want to ask questions about stuff that will embarrass you way more than it would embarrass me.
Em: But..
Me: OK, fine. You want to know? You're right. Daddy and I did it, on the couch, right where you always sit. And we left my bra on the table as a clue.
Em, bright red: Really?
Me: No, of course not. My bra was bothering me, and I took it off. But you asked...
Em, still giggling: Don't tell Daddy about this conversation, OK?
Me: Are you kidding? Is the first thing I'm going to tell him when I get home. You'll be lucky if I don't blog about it.
Poor, unlucky Em.
That is the prologue to the conversation I am about to relate, between myself and Em on our way home from school today. (Keep in mind that both of us laughed and giggled throughout this entire exchange; otherwise, I'd have to write, "she giggled," and "I laughed" after every identifier, and it would get dull.)
Em: Hey, Mom, I found your bra on the coffee table this morning.
Me: Yeah, I know.
Em: Yeah, I was thinkin', 'ooooh, what were YOU doing last night?'
Me: Uh, Em? Lemme give you some advice before you go any further. Don't ask questions you don't want to know the answers to. You're 10 years old. I'm betting you would be more embarrassed if I gave you the answer you're looking for than I could ever be.
Em: Yeah, but I was thinking, its was almost your anniversary, you guys were watching a movie, the lights were low, there was romantic music...
Me: Em! Let me say this again. You DON'T want to ask questions about stuff that will embarrass you way more than it would embarrass me.
Em: But..
Me: OK, fine. You want to know? You're right. Daddy and I did it, on the couch, right where you always sit. And we left my bra on the table as a clue.
Em, bright red: Really?
Me: No, of course not. My bra was bothering me, and I took it off. But you asked...
Em, still giggling: Don't tell Daddy about this conversation, OK?
Me: Are you kidding? Is the first thing I'm going to tell him when I get home. You'll be lucky if I don't blog about it.
Poor, unlucky Em.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Reunion
Twelve years ago tomorrow, Baroy and I were married by a rabbi (my uncle--more specifically, my stepfather's brother) in a really lovely ceremony in New York. Two weeks later, for a variety of reasons, we had a second ceremony in Los Angeles, in Marina del Rey. That ceremony--and it was an equally lovely if less traditional ceremony, at which we exchanged rings again and said different-but-no-less-meaningful vows--was officiated by the brother of one of Baroy's friends, a truly wonderful man who is properly ordained to perform such rites of passage. Of course, within just a couple of years, life had done what it does, and we lost direct touch with him, though his sister--Baroy's friend-- has kept Baroy up to date on significant events in his life.
Last night, we went out with our havurah to celebrate our upcoming anniversary (as well as to celebrate another member's 50th birthday next week, and another's successful participation in a 100-mile bike ride for the second year in a row). We went to a place that holds a lot of memories for us: It was the restaurant that our friends M and G took us to the night before Em came home from the NICU, six days after she was born; it was the restaurant to which we took my father on one of his two or three visits to the area. And so we were sitting there, 14 of us in all, talking about all these milestones in our lives, when all of a sudden I noticed Baroy leap up from his seat, a huge smile on his face; seconds later, he was hugging the very man, M, who had done our second wedding ceremony a dozen years earlier.
I of course joined Baroy, laughing and exclaiming over M and his wife, and wondering how it was that they came to be in this restaurant, which is nowhere near where they live (and not so near where we live now, either). We re-introduced them to Em, whom they'd last seen when she was around two years old, and to N, whom they'd never met.
When they left, soon after (they were on their way to a theatrical performance and couldn't stay to catch up), we'd pledged to get together for real, real soon, and I fell back into my seat, shaking my head in amazement. Our friends, too, were open-mouthed over this coincidence. There we were, celebrating our marriage, only to have one of the men who put an official stamp on it walk right past our table, and back into our lives. That, we decided, called for yet another l'chaim. And so we drank to coincidence and love and fate and the people who play roles both large and small in making our lives what they are today.
Strange and mysterious ways, my friends. Strange and mysterious.
Last night, we went out with our havurah to celebrate our upcoming anniversary (as well as to celebrate another member's 50th birthday next week, and another's successful participation in a 100-mile bike ride for the second year in a row). We went to a place that holds a lot of memories for us: It was the restaurant that our friends M and G took us to the night before Em came home from the NICU, six days after she was born; it was the restaurant to which we took my father on one of his two or three visits to the area. And so we were sitting there, 14 of us in all, talking about all these milestones in our lives, when all of a sudden I noticed Baroy leap up from his seat, a huge smile on his face; seconds later, he was hugging the very man, M, who had done our second wedding ceremony a dozen years earlier.
I of course joined Baroy, laughing and exclaiming over M and his wife, and wondering how it was that they came to be in this restaurant, which is nowhere near where they live (and not so near where we live now, either). We re-introduced them to Em, whom they'd last seen when she was around two years old, and to N, whom they'd never met.
When they left, soon after (they were on their way to a theatrical performance and couldn't stay to catch up), we'd pledged to get together for real, real soon, and I fell back into my seat, shaking my head in amazement. Our friends, too, were open-mouthed over this coincidence. There we were, celebrating our marriage, only to have one of the men who put an official stamp on it walk right past our table, and back into our lives. That, we decided, called for yet another l'chaim. And so we drank to coincidence and love and fate and the people who play roles both large and small in making our lives what they are today.
Strange and mysterious ways, my friends. Strange and mysterious.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Lion Days
There are dark, ominous clouds rolling in over the horizon. I know I shouldn't complain; I've seen the pictures from Atlanta. But there is little that I find more oppressive than heavy rain-laden clouds. I have never been one to enjoy 'weather.' Baroy loves rainy days, because he loves sleeping to the sound of rain on the roof. Me, I love nothing more than a blue sky and temps in the 80s. That's why I love Southern California. I didn't come here for the rain.
Em is a SoCal girl to the bottom of her heart; in fact, right now she's in her friend's pool, having the first swim of the season, even though it's maybe 65 degrees out. "They pool's all heated up," she whined when at first I told her I didn't think it was a good idea. "It may be cold outside, but it's warm in there." I trust the mom in question to pull them out when the clouds really start to cover us, so I gave in. Em's yearning for real summer, and so am I.
Just a few minutes ago, N looked out the back windows of the house (out front it's still sun and blue skies; out back it looks like an entirely different world) and exclaimed, "It's a lion day back here! Where it's sunny over there it's a lamb day, but here it's a lion day! That's weird!"
Me, I'm just going to wait these lions out--preferably under a warm comforter--and wait for the lambs to return.
Em is a SoCal girl to the bottom of her heart; in fact, right now she's in her friend's pool, having the first swim of the season, even though it's maybe 65 degrees out. "They pool's all heated up," she whined when at first I told her I didn't think it was a good idea. "It may be cold outside, but it's warm in there." I trust the mom in question to pull them out when the clouds really start to cover us, so I gave in. Em's yearning for real summer, and so am I.
Just a few minutes ago, N looked out the back windows of the house (out front it's still sun and blue skies; out back it looks like an entirely different world) and exclaimed, "It's a lion day back here! Where it's sunny over there it's a lamb day, but here it's a lion day! That's weird!"
Me, I'm just going to wait these lions out--preferably under a warm comforter--and wait for the lambs to return.
Friday, March 14, 2008
I'll Love You Forever
The kids got out of school early today (report card prep for the teachers) and while Em went to play at a friend's house, N and I went to the library to see if we could find more of Tedd Arnold's Fly Guy books to read. (Any book that makes N say, "Let's get more of these!" gets an immediate response in my house. But we always try the library first. Because...Well, if you don't know why, you obviously didn't read about how I buy Chanukah presents at Goodwill.)
On the way back, we passed a construction site. "When I get to be a grownup, I'm going to work there," N said, pointing. "And then I'll come home at night and sleep in our house still, of course. Except Daddy will have to teach me to drive a car. Or a truck, maybe."
"So you're going to be a construction worker now?" I asked. "What happened to being a fireman?"
"Well, I might have a lot of jobs," he replied. "Like...Well, I don't want to be a soldier, because I don't want to die, but I might be a policeman, a fireman, an ambulance...Wait. Do policemen die?"
"Well, yes, sometimes," I admitted. "And sometimes firemen do, too. Those are all very important jobs, but sometimes they can be dangerous."
"Well, if I was made of metal I wouldn't die," he countered.
"Sure, but if you were made of metal, you'd be a robot and you wouldn't be a human. So you couldn't die, because you wouldn't be alive."
He pondered this for a minute, then moved on. "Where do policemen live?"
"They live in houses with their families, like everyone else," I said. "They go to the police station to do their job, then they come home."
"Good," he answered. "Because I still want to live with you and Daddy and sleep in my favorite bed with Snuggy as my guard." [Note: We really need to work on his pronounciation of 'guard,' because right now it comes out as 'god,' and it always takes me aback to hear him proclaim, when Snug settles down on the foot of his bed as he does every night, "Oh, good. There's Snuggy, my god."]
"Don't you want to live somewhere else when you grow up?"
"No way! Except..." and here he hesitates for a second, "well, one day I might see a girl I like and marry her."
"Right. And then what will you do?"
"It'll be OK, though. I'll just talk to her about it a lot and then we'll both live with you guys."
"In your same bed? With the Spongebob sheets?"
"In my favorite bed. With my favorite Spongebob sheets. And Snuggy as our god."
It's good to have a plan.
[Note number 1: I swear to Snuggy that this is an almost word-for-word transcript of what transpired. Check out those language skills. Note how the entire thing makes almost perfect sense. It would be almost freaky if it weren't so wonderful.]
[Note number 2: I swear to Snuggy as well that I have NO idea where he got the "I don't want to be a soldier because I don't want to die," thing. You'd think it would be obvious (here everyone looks meaningfully over at Baroy), but that is actually so NOT the kind of thing that ever gets discussed in this house, or at least not with the kids directly. So I haven't a clue, not really.]
On the way back, we passed a construction site. "When I get to be a grownup, I'm going to work there," N said, pointing. "And then I'll come home at night and sleep in our house still, of course. Except Daddy will have to teach me to drive a car. Or a truck, maybe."
"So you're going to be a construction worker now?" I asked. "What happened to being a fireman?"
"Well, I might have a lot of jobs," he replied. "Like...Well, I don't want to be a soldier, because I don't want to die, but I might be a policeman, a fireman, an ambulance...Wait. Do policemen die?"
"Well, yes, sometimes," I admitted. "And sometimes firemen do, too. Those are all very important jobs, but sometimes they can be dangerous."
"Well, if I was made of metal I wouldn't die," he countered.
"Sure, but if you were made of metal, you'd be a robot and you wouldn't be a human. So you couldn't die, because you wouldn't be alive."
He pondered this for a minute, then moved on. "Where do policemen live?"
"They live in houses with their families, like everyone else," I said. "They go to the police station to do their job, then they come home."
"Good," he answered. "Because I still want to live with you and Daddy and sleep in my favorite bed with Snuggy as my guard." [Note: We really need to work on his pronounciation of 'guard,' because right now it comes out as 'god,' and it always takes me aback to hear him proclaim, when Snug settles down on the foot of his bed as he does every night, "Oh, good. There's Snuggy, my god."]
"Don't you want to live somewhere else when you grow up?"
"No way! Except..." and here he hesitates for a second, "well, one day I might see a girl I like and marry her."
"Right. And then what will you do?"
"It'll be OK, though. I'll just talk to her about it a lot and then we'll both live with you guys."
"In your same bed? With the Spongebob sheets?"
"In my favorite bed. With my favorite Spongebob sheets. And Snuggy as our god."
It's good to have a plan.
[Note number 1: I swear to Snuggy that this is an almost word-for-word transcript of what transpired. Check out those language skills. Note how the entire thing makes almost perfect sense. It would be almost freaky if it weren't so wonderful.]
[Note number 2: I swear to Snuggy as well that I have NO idea where he got the "I don't want to be a soldier because I don't want to die," thing. You'd think it would be obvious (here everyone looks meaningfully over at Baroy), but that is actually so NOT the kind of thing that ever gets discussed in this house, or at least not with the kids directly. So I haven't a clue, not really.]
Thursday, March 13, 2008
For All You Sad Pandas
For the record: I never said I had a new job. I have a new title, and I'm doing somewhat different things, but I'm doing them for the same people, from the same place (i.e., home sweet home). It's a good thing, because I'm feeling a little more useful and a little more secure; it's a less-good thing, because I'm constantly busy and haven't really had a chance to catch my breath since the day these duties were handed to me. But I can't say that in any way it's an actual bad thing, and overall, I'm happy about it. (Though not a happy panda, because...I have no idea what that means.) It's a positive change.
And that--being that this is the Internet, and one Does Not Discuss Work Specifics on the Internet if one wants to continue working--is all I have to say about that.
And that--being that this is the Internet, and one Does Not Discuss Work Specifics on the Internet if one wants to continue working--is all I have to say about that.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Under the Wire
Dang; almost forgot to post today! Let's pretend I meant to wait until now, OK?
Know what would really suck? If I forgot to post until now and then added insult to injury by having nothing to say. Which, well...all I can say is, thank goodness for my mother. And why, might you ask? Because back in December, when I was posting those long lists of books I'd read throughout the year, she mentioned to me that she thought I was overwhelming everyone with so many books all at one time, and that's why nobody was really commenting on what I had to say. (Shhh. Don't anyone tell her that nobody EVER comments on what I have to say. I like that she thinks I'm popular. Hi, Mom!)
Her suggestion was that I post my reading lists more frequently throughout the year, at various intervals. But I didn't have the energy to do so...until now. Now, I have about 20 minutes until the end of the day, about 20 seconds' worth of imaginative thought, and the book stuff is already written. All I have to do is cut and paste. Score!
And so I give you...The Audiobooks I Listened To In January And February Of This Year. (Oh, stop that swooning with excitement, you over there...)
January
1. Baker Towers by Jennifer Haigh: I keep this ongoing list of books I want to read. The list is comprised of titles from awards long- and short-lists, and end-of-year wrap-ups; it has titles from various 100 Best Books You Never Read or somesuch snooty pseudo-intellectual lists. It has books I heard about from friends, books recommended on other blogs, books reviewed in literary magazines. It has a lot of books on it, my list, and they all get thrown in together, so that after a fairly short period of time, I have no idea what came from where. All of which is to say that I have no idea where it was that I heard about this book. I had the feeling that it was supposed to be...weightier. More literary. Something. I had recently finished reading Mrs. Kimble when I started listening to this, and maybe that should have clued me in. In any case, wherever it came from, it was an OK book. A pleasant ‘read.’ Some interesting, if two-dimensional, characters. Fairly predictable. It was...just OK. But it’s really bugging me that I can’t remember where the recommendation that I read it came from.
2. Notes from a Small Island by Bill Bryson: What it is about Bryson that hits my funny bone in just the right spot is beyond me. But hit he does. In fact, I actually found myself jotting down lines so I could share them with my brother-in-law, whose sense of humor matches me to a T. Overall, I’m not a huge fan of travel writing, so this book didn’t make me want to read it over and over. But there were lines that I am still chucking about now, days after finishing this book. This man, in other words, is fun-E.
February
3. The Weight of Water by Anita Shreve: It just seems to me that, more often than not, when a writer feels the need to do one of these story-within-a-story plotlines, it’s because she doesn’t feel confident that one—or both—of the plots have enough heft to them to carry a book. The problem is, putting two not-strong-enough plots together doesn’t solve that issue. In this case, I actually think the subplot had the potential to be an intriguing story, had Shreve actually trusted in it enough. And given it a less obvious and insipid ending. And maybe had someone else write it. (No, I didn’t like this book. And yes, I’m totally over Shreve.)
4. The View from Castle Rock by Alice Munro: Dear god, the narrator’s Scottish accent on this audiobook was abominable. Other than that, my hat is very far off. Munro is a true master. These are amazing stories, though I've read others of her I liked even better. You know a writer's good, though, when the work that isn't her all-time best still merits words like "master" and "amazing." Thank you, Ms. Munro, for totally taking the bad Shreve taste out of my mouth.
5. True North by Jim Harrison: His books are really, really good. There is no reason I should be reading him, because they are so very much not my general cup of tea, but they are really well written, and really compelling, not to mention often quite sensual (and simultaneously somewhat crass). All I can say is that as soon as I got about halfway through this book, I went to the library website to request some others. (I'd actually already listened to a book of his short stories, called The Summer He Didn't Die, back in 2006, and was two-third impressed. This time, it was well over three-quarters impressed. Maybe even five-sixths.)
Know what would really suck? If I forgot to post until now and then added insult to injury by having nothing to say. Which, well...all I can say is, thank goodness for my mother. And why, might you ask? Because back in December, when I was posting those long lists of books I'd read throughout the year, she mentioned to me that she thought I was overwhelming everyone with so many books all at one time, and that's why nobody was really commenting on what I had to say. (Shhh. Don't anyone tell her that nobody EVER comments on what I have to say. I like that she thinks I'm popular. Hi, Mom!)
Her suggestion was that I post my reading lists more frequently throughout the year, at various intervals. But I didn't have the energy to do so...until now. Now, I have about 20 minutes until the end of the day, about 20 seconds' worth of imaginative thought, and the book stuff is already written. All I have to do is cut and paste. Score!
And so I give you...The Audiobooks I Listened To In January And February Of This Year. (Oh, stop that swooning with excitement, you over there...)
January
1. Baker Towers by Jennifer Haigh: I keep this ongoing list of books I want to read. The list is comprised of titles from awards long- and short-lists, and end-of-year wrap-ups; it has titles from various 100 Best Books You Never Read or somesuch snooty pseudo-intellectual lists. It has books I heard about from friends, books recommended on other blogs, books reviewed in literary magazines. It has a lot of books on it, my list, and they all get thrown in together, so that after a fairly short period of time, I have no idea what came from where. All of which is to say that I have no idea where it was that I heard about this book. I had the feeling that it was supposed to be...weightier. More literary. Something. I had recently finished reading Mrs. Kimble when I started listening to this, and maybe that should have clued me in. In any case, wherever it came from, it was an OK book. A pleasant ‘read.’ Some interesting, if two-dimensional, characters. Fairly predictable. It was...just OK. But it’s really bugging me that I can’t remember where the recommendation that I read it came from.
2. Notes from a Small Island by Bill Bryson: What it is about Bryson that hits my funny bone in just the right spot is beyond me. But hit he does. In fact, I actually found myself jotting down lines so I could share them with my brother-in-law, whose sense of humor matches me to a T. Overall, I’m not a huge fan of travel writing, so this book didn’t make me want to read it over and over. But there were lines that I am still chucking about now, days after finishing this book. This man, in other words, is fun-E.
February
3. The Weight of Water by Anita Shreve: It just seems to me that, more often than not, when a writer feels the need to do one of these story-within-a-story plotlines, it’s because she doesn’t feel confident that one—or both—of the plots have enough heft to them to carry a book. The problem is, putting two not-strong-enough plots together doesn’t solve that issue. In this case, I actually think the subplot had the potential to be an intriguing story, had Shreve actually trusted in it enough. And given it a less obvious and insipid ending. And maybe had someone else write it. (No, I didn’t like this book. And yes, I’m totally over Shreve.)
4. The View from Castle Rock by Alice Munro: Dear god, the narrator’s Scottish accent on this audiobook was abominable. Other than that, my hat is very far off. Munro is a true master. These are amazing stories, though I've read others of her I liked even better. You know a writer's good, though, when the work that isn't her all-time best still merits words like "master" and "amazing." Thank you, Ms. Munro, for totally taking the bad Shreve taste out of my mouth.
5. True North by Jim Harrison: His books are really, really good. There is no reason I should be reading him, because they are so very much not my general cup of tea, but they are really well written, and really compelling, not to mention often quite sensual (and simultaneously somewhat crass). All I can say is that as soon as I got about halfway through this book, I went to the library website to request some others. (I'd actually already listened to a book of his short stories, called The Summer He Didn't Die, back in 2006, and was two-third impressed. This time, it was well over three-quarters impressed. Maybe even five-sixths.)
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Artificial Sweeteners Make Me Angry
I've been fighting this conclusion for ages. It seems so New Age-y, and I'm not. I'm skeptical about these assertions that you can pin behavior directly on something like preservatives or sugar or Red Dye #348,985,875.
(On the other hand, I'm a huge believer in the idea that diet can *influence* behavior. My skepticism is based on the "get rid of this one specific preservative, and your ADHD child will be the calmest kid on the block" argument. I just don't buy it.)
Which is why, as I said, I've been fighting this conclusion for ages. But I can't fight it any more. Artificial sweeteners in general--and NutraSweet in particular--make me angry. I drink a diet soda, I yell at my kids. It's almost a one-to-one correlation. I don't know how it works, exactly, but I know I'm not alone...There's plenty out there in the Google world on anger and irritability (as well as depression and mood swings) and their link to sucralose and its pals.
Why am I suddenly so sure? I've been avoiding diet drinks of late, on purpose...a difficult thing to do in my house, since Baroy is a Diet Coke (and Diet Canada Dry and Diet Anything With Bubbles) addict, and my fridge is STUFFED full of the stuff. But I've done that before, testing the "is this stuff making me mean?" waters. The difference is, I've been in a really unusually calm mood of late. I mean, I'm totally stressed at work--I've got a new title, new position, new tasks to learn--but that's stress, not anger, and it's been really focused on work. I've been truly (and unusually) calm at home, dealing with the kids with an evenness that I often aspire to but rarely achieve, and bantering happily with Baroy without any unnecessary snarkiness. (I won't swear to the absence necessary snarkiness, of course...but that's a different ballgame entirely.)
And then, not even thinking about it, I grabbed a diet ginger ale at dinnertime. Within an hour, I was snapping at N for...well, for walking past me. (In my defense: He kept knocking into me as he came and went from the living room, and twice nearly knocked my laptop onto the floor. But still. He was walking past me. There were ways to deal with it that didn't have to involve a voice raised in anger.) And then I went to put him to bed, and found myself yelling at him for not paying complete and proper attention when I read to him, and then yelling into Em's room because she hadn't turned off her light the VERY SECOND I told her to, and then stomping out of N's room because he was wriggling around and making me insane. By wriggling. A little.
I stomped into the living room, huffing and puffing like I was the World's Most Put-Upon Mother, what with having to deal with all that wriggling! and all that not turning off the light! and all that, um, EXISTING. Sheesh. What about ME? What about MY NEEDS? And I plopped down on the couch next to Baroy, rolling my eyes at him when he asked me whether they'd gone down all right...because how DARE he? Now I was the World's Most Put-Upon Wife, what with having to deal with all these questions! and the expectation of answers! Sheesh.
To return to my story: I stomped. I huffed and puffed. And I grabbed my...can......of.......OHHHHHHHH. You're kidding me. Really? That direct a link? Shit.
So, um, yeah. That not believing? I'm going to have to rethink that and get back to you on it. But I can pretty much guarantee I won't be drinking a Diet Coke while I do that.
(On the other hand, I'm a huge believer in the idea that diet can *influence* behavior. My skepticism is based on the "get rid of this one specific preservative, and your ADHD child will be the calmest kid on the block" argument. I just don't buy it.)
Which is why, as I said, I've been fighting this conclusion for ages. But I can't fight it any more. Artificial sweeteners in general--and NutraSweet in particular--make me angry. I drink a diet soda, I yell at my kids. It's almost a one-to-one correlation. I don't know how it works, exactly, but I know I'm not alone...There's plenty out there in the Google world on anger and irritability (as well as depression and mood swings) and their link to sucralose and its pals.
Why am I suddenly so sure? I've been avoiding diet drinks of late, on purpose...a difficult thing to do in my house, since Baroy is a Diet Coke (and Diet Canada Dry and Diet Anything With Bubbles) addict, and my fridge is STUFFED full of the stuff. But I've done that before, testing the "is this stuff making me mean?" waters. The difference is, I've been in a really unusually calm mood of late. I mean, I'm totally stressed at work--I've got a new title, new position, new tasks to learn--but that's stress, not anger, and it's been really focused on work. I've been truly (and unusually) calm at home, dealing with the kids with an evenness that I often aspire to but rarely achieve, and bantering happily with Baroy without any unnecessary snarkiness. (I won't swear to the absence necessary snarkiness, of course...but that's a different ballgame entirely.)
And then, not even thinking about it, I grabbed a diet ginger ale at dinnertime. Within an hour, I was snapping at N for...well, for walking past me. (In my defense: He kept knocking into me as he came and went from the living room, and twice nearly knocked my laptop onto the floor. But still. He was walking past me. There were ways to deal with it that didn't have to involve a voice raised in anger.) And then I went to put him to bed, and found myself yelling at him for not paying complete and proper attention when I read to him, and then yelling into Em's room because she hadn't turned off her light the VERY SECOND I told her to, and then stomping out of N's room because he was wriggling around and making me insane. By wriggling. A little.
I stomped into the living room, huffing and puffing like I was the World's Most Put-Upon Mother, what with having to deal with all that wriggling! and all that not turning off the light! and all that, um, EXISTING. Sheesh. What about ME? What about MY NEEDS? And I plopped down on the couch next to Baroy, rolling my eyes at him when he asked me whether they'd gone down all right...because how DARE he? Now I was the World's Most Put-Upon Wife, what with having to deal with all these questions! and the expectation of answers! Sheesh.
To return to my story: I stomped. I huffed and puffed. And I grabbed my...can......of.......OHHHHHHHH. You're kidding me. Really? That direct a link? Shit.
So, um, yeah. That not believing? I'm going to have to rethink that and get back to you on it. But I can pretty much guarantee I won't be drinking a Diet Coke while I do that.
Monday, March 10, 2008
Neverending
I've been doing a fair amount of cooking lately--fish! chicken! salads! veggies! sometimes even salads AND veggies on the same table during the same meal!--and there is that great satisfaction of knowing I'm actually giving my family "food," as opposed to "stuff from a box that sort of looks like food but maybe isn't."
But there's a problem. Those ingrates...they want to eat meals EVERY DAY. Sometimes THREE meals! And there is only so much sauteeing and slicing and browning and braising I'm willing to do. I'm only human!
And so our menus look a lot like this these days:
Sunday dinner: Catfish fillets and broccoli sauteed in butter and lemon; baguette; romaine lettuce and baby carrots with TJ's yummy low-fat cilantro dressing
Monday dinner: Frozen chicken taquitos thrown onto a paper plate; ramen noodles on the side, but only grudgingly, after the kids complain that they want more than taquitos
It's a little schizophrenic. Plus, all that happens is I rack up a few "good mommy" points on Sunday, only to blow them all on Monday's zero-nutritional-value preservative-fest. And trust me, it's all about racking up the good mommy points. But I just don't have the tiiiiiime! Or the enerrrrrrrgyyyyyy!
Bah. I was better off when I didn't realize that each trip through the McD's drive-through is the equivalent of shaving a month and a half off their life spans. Not that our car is never spotted there, mind you. I just feel a whole lot guiltier about it.
But there's a problem. Those ingrates...they want to eat meals EVERY DAY. Sometimes THREE meals! And there is only so much sauteeing and slicing and browning and braising I'm willing to do. I'm only human!
And so our menus look a lot like this these days:
Sunday dinner: Catfish fillets and broccoli sauteed in butter and lemon; baguette; romaine lettuce and baby carrots with TJ's yummy low-fat cilantro dressing
Monday dinner: Frozen chicken taquitos thrown onto a paper plate; ramen noodles on the side, but only grudgingly, after the kids complain that they want more than taquitos
It's a little schizophrenic. Plus, all that happens is I rack up a few "good mommy" points on Sunday, only to blow them all on Monday's zero-nutritional-value preservative-fest. And trust me, it's all about racking up the good mommy points. But I just don't have the tiiiiiime! Or the enerrrrrrrgyyyyyy!
Bah. I was better off when I didn't realize that each trip through the McD's drive-through is the equivalent of shaving a month and a half off their life spans. Not that our car is never spotted there, mind you. I just feel a whole lot guiltier about it.
Sunday, March 9, 2008
What I Already Knew But Needed To Hear
I ran into a friend of ours at the Girl Scout Tasting Bee the other day, a guy who Baroy just adores, and who returns that regard. One of this guy's three kids is almost three years younger than N, and N's polar opposite. While N had to be almost literally dragged into the loud and bewildering Tasting Bee by his ear, my friend's boy was doing everything but rolling in the chaos, in an attempt to get more, hear more, feel more.
The funny thing is that these two boys, though separated by three years and miles of temperament, absolutely love hanging out together. As soon as little E saw N was there, he
started engaging him in a game of chase, and soon they were tearing up the place together, though N made frequent pitstops to bury his face in my legs and collect himself before heading into the melee again.
At one point I made an apologetic face at this friend, J, as N interrupted us once more while hiding from little E. "It's just too much for him in here," I said, "what with his sensory issues and all."
"What issues?" J shot back and, without waiting for me to respond, went on to elaborate. "N and little E don't have issues; they have ways of coping with their world. We're the ones with the issues, the ones doing all the fretting and wondering and worrying. They're just living their lives."
Later on, J wanted to take a picture of N and little E, and N grew suddenly shy, popping his thumb into his mouth. I told him to take it out, but he refused, and I became annoyed and a little embarrassed. J, noticing my upset, said to little E, "Hey, E, why don't you suck your thumb, too?" E, giggling, put his thumb in his mouth; this made N giggle, too, and J took a shot of two happy boys who happen to be sucking their thumbs. As he was putting his camera away, J looked at me and said, "Your son is going to own this world some day. Don't make him try to change to fit the world; let the world change to fit him."
Both of those scenes, and J's words, simplistic and even somewhat trite though they are, have stuck with me all week. Whether or not they're ultimately true, they've brought me seven days of calm and coping, and that alone is priceless.
The funny thing is that these two boys, though separated by three years and miles of temperament, absolutely love hanging out together. As soon as little E saw N was there, he
started engaging him in a game of chase, and soon they were tearing up the place together, though N made frequent pitstops to bury his face in my legs and collect himself before heading into the melee again.
At one point I made an apologetic face at this friend, J, as N interrupted us once more while hiding from little E. "It's just too much for him in here," I said, "what with his sensory issues and all."
"What issues?" J shot back and, without waiting for me to respond, went on to elaborate. "N and little E don't have issues; they have ways of coping with their world. We're the ones with the issues, the ones doing all the fretting and wondering and worrying. They're just living their lives."
Later on, J wanted to take a picture of N and little E, and N grew suddenly shy, popping his thumb into his mouth. I told him to take it out, but he refused, and I became annoyed and a little embarrassed. J, noticing my upset, said to little E, "Hey, E, why don't you suck your thumb, too?" E, giggling, put his thumb in his mouth; this made N giggle, too, and J took a shot of two happy boys who happen to be sucking their thumbs. As he was putting his camera away, J looked at me and said, "Your son is going to own this world some day. Don't make him try to change to fit the world; let the world change to fit him."
Both of those scenes, and J's words, simplistic and even somewhat trite though they are, have stuck with me all week. Whether or not they're ultimately true, they've brought me seven days of calm and coping, and that alone is priceless.
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Little Moments of Judaism
1. Last night, Em, N and I were watching the Canadian television version of Anne of Green Gables (which Em and I recently read together), when one of the characters said of another, "She's a real gimlet." At which point N suddenly burst out, "Huh? I didn't know she knows Hebrew!"
"Hebrew?" I asked, genuinely confused for about 30 seconds, at which point I burst out laughing. "Oh, no, sweetie. She said gimlet, not gimel."
My 7-year-old totally knows more Hebrew than I do, even if he's not quite so hot on English vocabulary. I love it.
2. We had a Religious School Saturday morning Shabbat service this morning (followed by a potluck luncheon organized and 'hosted' by yours truly that went very nicely, thank goodness, though the Critical Ladies made sure to let me know about everything I did that wasn't EXACTLY the way they would have done it). We have an exceptionally small religious school--fewer than 30 kids in grades K through 6--so each and every kid got to be a real part of the event. Even N, who is pretty shy when it comes to speaking Hebrew out loud, stood up front and paid attention when his class was asked to do the Shema.
Em's fourth-and-fifth-grade class (all girls) led us in a number of the songs and prayers, and then almost literally fought one another for the privilege of carrying the Torah around before and after the Torah service. In the end, the Religious School Director, who is also a rabbi, let the girls hand it off to one another as they proceeded around the social hall where we were holding the service. They all looked so proud; it was, for most if not all of them, the first time they've been allowed to hold a 'real' Torah.
Still, it came as a surprise to me when, during our nightly "Best and Worst" dinner conversation, Em announced that she had two bests, one being the fact that her friend E had come home with us after services for a playdate/sleepover and the other being "that I got to carry to Torah. That was one of the coolest things ever."
If I ever needed a sign to let me know that this religious education thing is having the sort of effect I hoped it would, it would be hearing my daughter use the words "Torah" and "coolest thing ever" in the same paragraph.
"Hebrew?" I asked, genuinely confused for about 30 seconds, at which point I burst out laughing. "Oh, no, sweetie. She said gimlet, not gimel."
My 7-year-old totally knows more Hebrew than I do, even if he's not quite so hot on English vocabulary. I love it.
2. We had a Religious School Saturday morning Shabbat service this morning (followed by a potluck luncheon organized and 'hosted' by yours truly that went very nicely, thank goodness, though the Critical Ladies made sure to let me know about everything I did that wasn't EXACTLY the way they would have done it). We have an exceptionally small religious school--fewer than 30 kids in grades K through 6--so each and every kid got to be a real part of the event. Even N, who is pretty shy when it comes to speaking Hebrew out loud, stood up front and paid attention when his class was asked to do the Shema.
Em's fourth-and-fifth-grade class (all girls) led us in a number of the songs and prayers, and then almost literally fought one another for the privilege of carrying the Torah around before and after the Torah service. In the end, the Religious School Director, who is also a rabbi, let the girls hand it off to one another as they proceeded around the social hall where we were holding the service. They all looked so proud; it was, for most if not all of them, the first time they've been allowed to hold a 'real' Torah.
Still, it came as a surprise to me when, during our nightly "Best and Worst" dinner conversation, Em announced that she had two bests, one being the fact that her friend E had come home with us after services for a playdate/sleepover and the other being "that I got to carry to Torah. That was one of the coolest things ever."
If I ever needed a sign to let me know that this religious education thing is having the sort of effect I hoped it would, it would be hearing my daughter use the words "Torah" and "coolest thing ever" in the same paragraph.
Friday, March 7, 2008
Monkey Boy
This is what happens when you leave your kids to their own devices on a teacher prep day when you still have to work: They create a game called Monkey Boy, which not only includes your little guy launching himself from the arm of the couch into his sister's arms while screaming "Monkey Boy like-eeeeeeeee," but also has theme music and a choreographed dance. Oh, and it includes Monkey Treats--a pocketful of Fruit Loops, which Em pops into N's mouth, doggie-treat style, each time he does a 'trick.'
In fact, I am typing this while listening to the two of them hopping around and singing, "Back, front, side to side. Back, front, side to side. Back, front, side to side. All along the monkey hop." No, it doesn't rhyme or make sense, but it also doesn't include either of them screaming at me to intervene because the other one breathed in an annoying manner...so it works for me.
In fact, I am typing this while listening to the two of them hopping around and singing, "Back, front, side to side. Back, front, side to side. Back, front, side to side. All along the monkey hop." No, it doesn't rhyme or make sense, but it also doesn't include either of them screaming at me to intervene because the other one breathed in an annoying manner...so it works for me.
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Commando
N's teacher waylaid me on our way to the car from the school yard today. It's Reading Night at the school, when the kids all come in PJs and various teachers come and read them bedtime stories. (It's also the culminating event of Book Fair week, which means the evening will end up costing me serious buckage. But all for a good cause, right? And what kind of meanie cheapo would I have to be to say no to kids who are begging me for JUST ONE MORE BOOK MOMMY?)
N's teacher is going to be reading tonight, and apparently she mentioned this to the class, and also reminded them to come in PJs. At which point, as she recalled when she pulled me aside this afternoon, N looked up and said, "But I only wear a big T-shirt for my PJs."
"That's OK," Mrs. N said. "Just wear whatever you usually wear."
"But I ONLY wear a big T-shirt for my PJs. No underwear."
It was at this point in the conversation that I buried my face in my hands. Mrs. N leaned in closer to me. "So I told him, 'That's too much information for me, N. I don't want to see you going commando to Reading Night. Make sure you put on some underwear and pants, OK?'"
One more time, so you can get the full effect: N's first grade teacher was forced to utter the words, "I don't want to see you going commando to Reading Night," to a 7-year-old. I'm pretty sure this is not one of the things they cover in those education courses.
I may eventually recover from the embarrassment, but it won't be any time soon.
N's teacher is going to be reading tonight, and apparently she mentioned this to the class, and also reminded them to come in PJs. At which point, as she recalled when she pulled me aside this afternoon, N looked up and said, "But I only wear a big T-shirt for my PJs."
"That's OK," Mrs. N said. "Just wear whatever you usually wear."
"But I ONLY wear a big T-shirt for my PJs. No underwear."
It was at this point in the conversation that I buried my face in my hands. Mrs. N leaned in closer to me. "So I told him, 'That's too much information for me, N. I don't want to see you going commando to Reading Night. Make sure you put on some underwear and pants, OK?'"
One more time, so you can get the full effect: N's first grade teacher was forced to utter the words, "I don't want to see you going commando to Reading Night," to a 7-year-old. I'm pretty sure this is not one of the things they cover in those education courses.
I may eventually recover from the embarrassment, but it won't be any time soon.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
An Inconvenient Light Fixture
It's no secret to anyone who's been reading here a while that Em had taken an interest in environmental issues, especially the use of compact fluorescent lightbulbs. This is and was no fly-by-night thing, let me tell you. Since her 'correspondence' with Ahnold, she's decided to take matters into her own hands. She's attended two different talks with me at our synagogue--at which she was the youngest person by several decades, both times--about how to live greener lives, she's been reading 'green' books and articles, and she began a pretty persistent campaign to replace all our incandescent bulbs with CFLs.
And when I say persistent, I mean persistent. So persistent that I've had to get strict with her on a few occasions, explaining that I am not going to go through the house throwing out all those perfectly good regular lightbulbs...at least not until they've burned their last energy-wasting watt. But I'm not dashing all her eco hopes and dreams. When she got a new lamp in her bedroom, we got her a CFL to put in there. And when she began agitating to replace the bulb in her own room's overhead fan/fixture, I gave in quickly; it's her room, and her passion. But her hopes were dashed when we realized that the CFLs we have don't fit. They're too long, and won't allow the glass globe to be fitted back onto the fixture.
She accepted her fate, however reluctantly. Until, that is, the light in the fixture officially blew this evening. Faced with having to put--the horror!--another incandescent bulb into the fixture, my 10-year-old daughter began to cry actual tears. So Baroy went rooting around in our increasingly diverse CFL collection in the garage (I buy them when they're on sale, trying to find ones whose light isn't so bleak and sterile that it makes me want to weep) and unsuccessfully tried quite a few before finally unearthing a 'mini' CFL that fits the fixture perfectly.
When she saw her room illuminated with that weak, greenish glow (I really do hate the light from CFLs), Em came running over to Baroy and threw her arms around him. "Thank you, Daddy, thank you!" she declared. "I'm so happy now! I'm saving the world one lightbulb at a time!"
Somewhere out there, Al Gore is smiling.
And when I say persistent, I mean persistent. So persistent that I've had to get strict with her on a few occasions, explaining that I am not going to go through the house throwing out all those perfectly good regular lightbulbs...at least not until they've burned their last energy-wasting watt. But I'm not dashing all her eco hopes and dreams. When she got a new lamp in her bedroom, we got her a CFL to put in there. And when she began agitating to replace the bulb in her own room's overhead fan/fixture, I gave in quickly; it's her room, and her passion. But her hopes were dashed when we realized that the CFLs we have don't fit. They're too long, and won't allow the glass globe to be fitted back onto the fixture.
She accepted her fate, however reluctantly. Until, that is, the light in the fixture officially blew this evening. Faced with having to put--the horror!--another incandescent bulb into the fixture, my 10-year-old daughter began to cry actual tears. So Baroy went rooting around in our increasingly diverse CFL collection in the garage (I buy them when they're on sale, trying to find ones whose light isn't so bleak and sterile that it makes me want to weep) and unsuccessfully tried quite a few before finally unearthing a 'mini' CFL that fits the fixture perfectly.
When she saw her room illuminated with that weak, greenish glow (I really do hate the light from CFLs), Em came running over to Baroy and threw her arms around him. "Thank you, Daddy, thank you!" she declared. "I'm so happy now! I'm saving the world one lightbulb at a time!"
Somewhere out there, Al Gore is smiling.
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